My heaven is to please God, and glorify Him, and to give all to Him, and to be wholly devoted to His glory.
That is the heaven I long for; that is my religion, and that is my happiness, and always was every since I suppose I had any true religion  All those that are of that religion shall meet me in heaven.

I do not go to heaven to be advanced, but to give honor to God. It is no matter where I shall be stationed in heaven, whether I have a high or low seat there but to love and please, and glorify God is all. Hah I a thousand souls, if they were worth anything, I would give them all to God; but I have nothing to give, when all is done”

- David Brainerd

 

That’s a Prayer

” His manner of praying was very agreeable; most becoming a worm of the dust, and a disciple of Christ, addressing an infinitely great and holy God, and Father or mercies; not with florid expressions, or a studied eloquence; not with any intemperate vehemence, or indecent boldness  It was at the greatets distance from any appearance of ostentation, and from everything that might look as though he meant to recommend himself to those that were about him, or set himself off to their acceptance. It was free also from vain repetitions, without impertinent excusions, or needless multiplying of words. He expressed himself with te strictest propriety, with weight, and pungency; and yet what his lips uttered seemed to flow form the fullness of his heart, as deeply impressed with a great and solemn sense of our necessities, unworthiness, and dependence, and of God’s infinite greatness  excellency, and sufficiency  rather than merely from a warm and fruitful brain, pouring our good expressions.“
-J. Edwards

Hoping in Death

she tilted her head back
sighing with relief
thankfully thinking
“I’m not the only one”
letting the tears
roll down her ears

” O, blessed Lord, do come, do come!
Oh, do take me away, do let me die and go to Jesus Christ!
I am afraid if I live I shall sin again!
Oh, do let me die now! O, dear Jesus, do come!
I cannot stay, I cannot stay!
Oh, how can I live in this world!
Do take my soul waway from this sinful place!
Oh, let me never sin any more!
Oh, what shall I do, what shall I do!
Dear Jesus, O, dear Jesus.”

death. the deliverance from all sin

Lord, let me not outlive my usefulness
whether it be 120 or 39 or now

To the Lost

1 Corinthians 4:16

“Therefore I urge you to imitate me.”

you know when you’re doing VBS or chilling with them younglins you behave a bit more proper, better, holisher?

what if it that awareness was always till it graduates to being a norm unconscious lifestyle

you are example of Christ to those without Him
and they have no one to look to in their beginning infant stages except you to intimate?

what old dead behaviors am I still letting live through me?

 

YO YOU WITHOUT A FATHER AND MOTHER
observe how I treat each class of people, take care of my body, how I am faithful with my studies, eating habits, etc and IMITATE TO THE T!
- give me some time

Inspiration Trail

its rare, but at the same time often haha

when I fall in love with a person thoughts, I inquire to know and read their favorite books

when i fall in love with a direction of a movie, I watch all the movies that director created

when i fall in love with an author, their books are my new to-do lists

when i fall in love with a musician, his music becomes my new hums throughout the ex-silent days

and when i soak in all their wonderful works, i try to follow their trail of inspiration and soak in their works as well

the world is a beautiful place to be inspired
to breathe in their idea of life and exhale yours impacted by theirs

people, person, him, that her
i love you, when i dont know
but i feeel

you know?

haha

Fill The Gap

Strike me
Spit on me
Slander to me
Stone me
Crucify me

 

Enough

im searching for a small pearl
in the vast ocean
swimming sea to sea
walking shore to shore
never finding
only seeking

Even if I never find it, let me being able to seek You be enough.
Even if I die never seeing, but only believing
it is more than enough

Hebrew 11:13
All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance, admitting that they were foreigners and strangers on earth.

Nothing

Oh, that I should be banished from all human relations

haha

been pushing and wishing people away
the nearness is fearsome

dont touch me
it provokes in me
sadness
of what I envision to give but always fall short to

solitude was once a source of good
but now it is an idol I keep bowing down to

what good is in me
nothing

at last, light cannot shine in the light
because I am dark
Christ glory can shine

the end it near, the beginning is near

Final Judgement

Matthew 25:31-46

“When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, then he will sit on his glorious throne. Before him will be gathered all the nations, and he will separate people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. And he will place the sheep on his right, but the goats on the left. Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.’ Then the righteous will answer him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink?  And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you? And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?’ And the King will answer them, ‘Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers, you did it to me.’

 “Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. For I was hungry and you gave me no food, I was thirsty and you gave me no drink, I was a stranger and you did not welcome me, naked and you did not clothe me, sick and in prison and you did not visit me.’ Then they also will answer, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in prison, and did not minister to you?’ Then he will answer them, saying, ‘Truly, I say to you, as you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to me.’  And these will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.”

Goats condemned to eternal fire, their guilt of sin of not showing compassion……

Yeshua, I love You

 

I got a new bible
Amplified to ESV Study Bible

If you look at my old bible you can see the chapters where I skipped the story of the cross (im a huge annotator)

planned a date with Jesus, my Savior, to go to the cross together tom morning at 6am
Matthew……

im really scared